“Smile though your heart is aching
Smile even though it’s breaking
When there are clouds in the sky
You’ll get by
If you smile through your fear and sorrow
Smile and maybe tomorrow
You’ll see the sun come shining through for you

Light up your face with gladness
Hide every trace of sadness
Although a tear may be ever so near
That’s the time
You must keep on trying
Smile, what’s the use of crying
You’ll find that life is still worthwhile
If you just smile” — Sung by Nat King Cole

Sometimes life events happen that are beyond our control. I’ve had to deal with several of those this past year, so far. The year isn’t over yet . . . and I can hardly wait to see what else God has in store for us.

• a job loss
• death in the family
• a serious illness for my son
• a serious list of juvenile offenses for my daughter
• dealing with a psycopathic predator
• court appearances, juvenile probation officers
• doctors visits, medical tests, specialists
• a child trying to enjoy her senior year of high school

As the sole provider for our family, I’m the one who shoulders the responsibility for these kids, for our family. It’s my job to go to work to provide a home and insurance and food and get everyone where they need to go. It’s a heavy load, but one that I took on willingly.

If it weren’t for my faith, I’d have lost my mind by now. However, faith and hope can carry you far.

Meditating for 10 minutes in the morning and before bed, helps keep me calm, keeps me centered, helps me relax.

Having a relaxing space, off limits to everyone else in the household, provides a sanctuary where I can relax and read or nap when needed.

Putting a pretty face on it isn’t intended to hide the reality of grief or tension or heartbreak. I can discuss the facts of what is going on, but the emotional response is mine. My emotions are held close to my heart. One should never assume that if I share a small facet of how I’m feeling, that they are privy to my deepest thoughts – that is reserved for my conversations with God.

I abhor the drama that some try to add to the situations. I prefer to stick with facts. Assumptions, insinuations, inferences . . . none of it is helpful or needed. I have enough to deal with, without extras.

I’m not super human, I’m simply handling these situations to the best of my ability.

I will continue to smile through my fears and sorrows, while waiting for a brighter tomorrow.