"You can't fix crazy but you can document that shit because someday you may need a restraining order." Over five years now. Five. You'd think it would get old. Tiresome. It is for me at least but I suppose some people have nothing better to do with their time. It started with a slew of … Continue reading Stalker
Random Thoughts
A Lesson Found in the Mud
"If you haven't found it yet, keep looking. Don't settle." ~ Steve Jobs I'm not a very sentimental person. If I've learned much in life, it is to not hold on tightly to "things" for they can always be lost or taken away. Rather, hold onto memories and cherish them for they are yours forever. … Continue reading A Lesson Found in the Mud
Raw nerves
The other day I was speaking with someone and they off-handedly said, "Your parents must be proud of you!" And for a second, it seemed the air was sucked out of my lungs. I couldn't catch my breath. My eyes stung with hot tears. The pain twisted in my gut so sharp it was as … Continue reading Raw nerves
When stress incapacitates
I have headaches. I've had headaches since I was five. Migraines. Incessant pounding with every heartbeat. Excruciating pain that pulses through my head. They can last for days; often for more than a week. I carry my stress in my back and neck. Painful muscular knots begin near my scapula and work their way upwards … Continue reading When stress incapacitates
Survival mode
Some days. . . It's easy to forget where I started and how hard I've worked to get where I am right now. Other days. . . The fears and insecurities and questions are circling around in my head and it seems the struggle will never end. I didn't work this hard with all the … Continue reading Survival mode
Solitude
"I think it's very healthy to spend time alone. You need to know how to be alone and not be defined by another person." ~ Oscar Wilde I've noticed that many people don't like solitude. As if, by spending a few minutes or hours alone, they will be alone forever. Being alone is not the … Continue reading Solitude
Miracles in the Small Things
"Miracles come in moments. Be ready and willing." ~ Wayne Dyer The forecast didn't call for snow; we were all amazed when we saw it. It wasn't snowing when I backed in the hospice center drive and it wasn't snowing when we left. Yet, when I went to open the back of the ambulance to … Continue reading Miracles in the Small Things
Packing Life into Boxes
"Home is where the heart is, even if you can't remember what box you packed it in." ~ Unknown Packing up a life, especially one that has spanned 16 years in the same house, is difficult. I don't have a lot of sentimental attachment to "things" per se. I have memories which I will cherish … Continue reading Packing Life into Boxes
Dream So Big It’s Silly
Dreams are limited only by the imagination!
The Stuff of Nightmares
"They've promised that dreams can come true -- but forgot to mention that nightmares are dreams, too. ~ Oscar Wilde Dreams can be wonderful. Funny. Romantic. Weird. Delicious, even. And then there are nightmares. Nightmares are dreams too. Nightmares can be dreams of past events remembered. Distorted, piece-meal memories which awaken fear, dread and anxiety. … Continue reading The Stuff of Nightmares
The Road Back Home 